i'll see you again.

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 23:04:42 GMT

today was fucking rediculous. i hate allentown highschool with all my heart.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 19:48:34 GMT

school was sucky. but i'm over the bad mood i was in, because i realized i can't change shit, and hey, whatever. anyways, i'm waiting for christina to come get me.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 00:40:16 GMT

today was alllright. i was kinda in a bad mood all day, but then i hung out with christina and ali after school and did the usual, and then christina stopped by. yeahhhhhh

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 00:55:25 GMT

things are good. spring break was sweeeeet as hell. boys confuse me, i just hate when i want to know how the other person feels, but i refuse to ask, so i continue to receive mixed signals, and overanalyze everything. idk i just hope it works out the way i want it to, and hopefully he wants the same. anyways, i love life and my friends :]

today i had work, i got paid time & a half though. happppppy easter lovess.

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 23:52:23 GMT

laur, you really need to get your life together. rehab is a must. SYKKKKEEEEEEE laur i love you, but you're just a crazy drunk :]

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 19:15:00 GMT

i really don't like who i am anymore.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 23:10:31 GMT

mmm sunday ended up being okay, hospital, barnes and noble (i got this really good book call in my skin, it's about a heroin addict), the outles, and back to the hospital. christina was with me the whole time, and we came home and drank pina coladas haha.

monday we just sat around, and i got my hair done, bye bye rooooots :]

today were new classes, which means my whole daily routine was screwed up.
enlgish is allright, seems kinda...idk.
crime and justice seems fun
gym, hah.
lunch is crowded.
algebra2 hnrs is hard, i'm goign to reg. algebra 2

i went to the store to get some things for school, and now i'm home with christina.
mmmmmmmmmmm so sleeeeeeepy.

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 16:04:01 GMT

i haven't updated in awhile. shit's good though.
friday i hung out with ali and christina, fun stufff.

yesterday i got called out of work, then had the worst migraine of my life and had to go to the hospital, but turns out i was dehydrated. then i stayed at the hospital to visit my stepdad after i was released. then christina met me there and came back to my house.

i just got finsihed walking around my house doing an indian tribe dance, i'll probably start again in an hour. then i'm going back to the hospital, and to the outles to hand in a job application.

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 18:51:54 GMT

this weekend was good. uhm school, i didn't attend on monday. the rest of the week was alright. uhm sharif and i are done, whatever. i don't even think i can be friends with him, and i just wished him luck with his life, and that was that. i don't really care though, i have one main focus right now, and this just gives me more time and less distraction to focus on a more important goal; don't get me wrong, when i said good luck with your life, i meant it, i hope shit works out for him.

whats your name?: karlee
what do people call you?: karlee, kar
where you named after anything?: some bite in a book
if you were born the oppisite sex what would your name be?: i think it was matt
do people spell/say your name wrong?: no
if you could change your name what would you change it to?: madison, but it doesn't go with my last name, yanno
gender?: girly
birthday?: april 21st
age?: sixteen
age you act?: depends
age you want to be?: 21 yo0o
height?: 5'4
eye color?: brown
happy with it?: i wasn't, that's why i wore colored cotnacts. but honestly, i don't give a shit anymore.
natural hair color?: dark brown
happy with it? if not do you dye it?: no, that's why it's blonde.
righty or lefty?: righty
family?: i don't wannnna name all these people
pets?: maggie&lucy<3 and my kitttty cat tiger :]
peircings?: ears
tatoos?: i want one

love and stuff
single?: yea
who are you with, or who do you want to be with?: mmm no one
are you in love?: ahahah what's that?
have you ever been in love, if so how many times?: no, never.
do you believe in love at first sight?: until it happens to myself, no.
is it possible to be faithful to one person for ever?: i hope
do you want to get married?: eventually
do you want to have kids?: undecided
how many?: read above
do you believe in divorce?: yeah, i'll prolly get divorced
do you belive in true love?: when it happens, i'll believe it
do you consider love a mistake?: never
turn-ons?: i don't know, stop asking me this shit.
turns-offs?: drug addicts, man-whores.
do you think the oppisite sex finds you attractive?: idk doo0od
what is best about the opposite sex?: uh their penis?
what is worst about the oppisite sex?: they're fuckin wierd
are you a virgin?: at heart, yes
do you belive you should be in love to have sex?: you should, but i don't always do waht i should do, yannno
how far have you gone?: home base babbbby
how many people have you had sex with?: none of yo business
do other people consider you a slut?: don't care. fuck you.

right at this moment...
where are you?: room 205
what can you see out your window?: bricks
are you listening to music?: no0o
are you lonely or tired?: i'm full of energy, and all i need is mahself.
use 5 words to decribe how you are feeling:: energetic, confused, motivated, determined, delerious
are you talking to anyone online? if so who?: no
are you talking to anyone of the phone? if so who?: no
what are you wearing?: yallo shirt from bebe, jeans from abercrombie kids, a calvin klein bra, diro shoes, and rings.
what are you doing?: taking thie survey
whats on your mousepad?: there is no mousepad

friends
how many true friends do you have?: like idk
are you a loner?: no
who is your best friend?: christina lizzie laur!
oldest?: liz duh
newest?: christina casola!
shyest?: haahahaha none
loudest?: christina
smartest?: idk dude
ditziest?: laur
funniest?: all duh
who is the best listener?: christina
do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends?: it varies
who do you wish you were closer to?: idk
who knows the most about you?: laur prolly
who knows the least about you?: mm idk
who do you trust the most?: all
the least?: they wouldnt be my friends if i didnt trust them
who do you fight with the most?: zip
who do you talk to online the most?: laur
who do you talk to on the phone the most?: christina
do you trust others easily?: no.
name one who's arms you feel safe in:: blank
who house were you at last?: christina
who's your second family?: christina's
who lives the farthest away?: liz

do you....
smoke?: yes
drink alcohol?: yes
do drugs?: i guess
pray?: no
go to church?: no
sleep with stuffed animals?: no
take walks in the rain?: no
dance in the rain?: no
do any sports? if so which ones?: yes, people watchingcheerleadin yo0o
lie a lot?: not on purpose
steal?: eh
gamble?: no
have you ever....
kissed a stranger?: yes, as a matter a fact, 3 in one night, go me!
slept with a stranger?: eh no
spun until you were so dizzy you couldn't walk?: yes
screamed so much you lost your voice?: yes
laughed so much it was painful?: yes
cried so much it was painful?: yes
gone skinny dipping?: yes
played strip poker?: yes
had a medical emergency?: no
ran away from home?: eh i wouldn't say i ran away
done something extremely unexpected?: yes
slept outside?: yes
been onstage?: yes
deep stuff....
whats your biggest fear?: imperfection
what was your weirdest dream?: when my grandma was yellow, this dream happened twice
scariest dream?: there was thsi guy in a garbage bag suit at the end of my development chasing me wiht two guns
do you have a reoccuring dream?: ..the yellow grandma one
what was your best dream?: don't know
what IS your dream?: to be hapyp with everythign and everyone
do you live in the moment?: i try to
what you greatest stregth?: none.
whats your greatest weakness?: none.
do you have a motto you live by?: quod me nutrit me destruit
if your life were a movie what would it be called?: karlee martin
do you have any bad habits?: too many
do you have any secrets?: plenty, wanna know them? tooo bad :]
are you fake?: nope
what do you want to do in life?: sit on my ass
are you a daredevil?: i can be
are you predictable?: mmmmm idk
do you keep a journal/diary?: i don't really write it here.
if you could change one thing about you would you? what would it be?: i don't know/
if you were someone else, would you be friends with yourself?: prolly not.
do you think your a good person?: i have good intentions most of the time
do you think your emotionally strong?: somewhat, i keep a lot to myself.
do you regret anything?: eh no
do you think life has been good so far?: it has its ups and downs.
what do you like most about you body?: idk dude
least?: stomach
are you trust worthy?: if youre my friend, then yes.
are you gullible?: very

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 23:06:57 GMT

everything's a complete mess.

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 18:35:50 GMT

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and i just want to be by myself. i don't think i want any "boy figure" in my life right now; i'm going to take this time to get myself on track, and figure out some things.

i guess i'm just tired of always being treated like crap, and i'm tired of always going to someone else as soon as one relationship doesn't work out. maybe i just need something new.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 22:20:21 GMT

mmm i think i left off on saturday.... yeah i had work, christina came a visted me for awhile, then i went to bri's with some girls. that was fun. sunday i had work, today i had school, and i stayed after for a project. i need to go relax

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 18:38:40 GMT

it's funny that yesterday i wrote about how i'm losing any sort of relationship i've formed with some people, and than two hours later, i was reassured i was losing them. well anyways, i decided to go out last night for a change, it was nice.. i'm still blah but i think i'm just going to do everything in my power to get past it, or to not let it show, i mean not a lot of people really know know me, so it won't be too hard i hope. mmm i have work 3 to 9, come visit me.

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 18:09:00 GMT

i don't know what's going on right now, i haven't been myself, in a week or so. i used to be happier, more talkative and whatnot. i seem to be losing anykind of relationship i've ever formed with anyone. i just want my personality back. i've just been crying every second of the day basically, and if not, i'm holding it back. this really does suck.

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 18:49:12 GMT

i'm going to start updating again, and i'm back to this journal, i wasn't feeling the other one. anyways, life's allright. today i have to stay after and make up quizzes, not so fun. well, only 12 more minutes of the day, thankgodddd.

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 01:53:04 GMT

got like three hours asleep, and had picture day, i was cranky and irritable, and i have been, sorrry. cheerleading was okay. christina has penuomia and sharif is suspended, talk about a sucky day.

if i get one more bit of pressure i might explode.
i decided i'm just going to say i don't feel like talking about anything.
because honestly i don't, it gets me too worked up, and i don't feel like dealing with it, so until i come up with a solution for it, i'm putting it off, and not speaking about it with anyone.

anyways i'm on the phone with sharif now. loveeeeeeeehim<3

love

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 00:34:25 GMT

this weekend was fun. friday i had a home game, sharif got suspended :[ but he asked me out that day :] <333333 then i got into a fight with father he's been so mean lately, i'm doing everything perfect and getting screamed at but last year i did everything wrong and barely got yelled at, funny huh

anyways, saturday i had workyyyy, then i went to christina's with christina :]

then today i went to sharif's, drew and mike were there for a bit. then sharif and i just hung out. but see he has this big window above his front door and we were sitting outsie on the front steps and we heard a bang and we both turn around and see a bird falling, it died bc it flew into the window but anyways, i love him :]

i'm back at christina's waiting for something!!

i'm gonnna miss sharif in schoool tomorrrow
and right now i'm talking to him onlien and he's waiting for me to update. and i love my sister.

ilyy

you took me over the edge

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 16:38:18 GMT

guess who just left my house... CHRISTINA. so i had a fun summer i'd say. it's like i switched into a different person at the end of august, i like it. summer was filled with fun and drama, mostly fun though, it went by so fast. i'm not ready for school, but in a way i am. so since i 'fucked up' last year my parents are basically holding it against me, saying i can't even have sleepovers on school nights, which is funny

today i'm just gunna clean my room, exfoliate and take a bath and shower, go to cheerleading, then hanging out with sharif after<333333333333333333333

anyways i'm prettty happppy.
iloveyouuuu<3333

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 19:06:38 GMT

life's been goood
i'm at christina's now, i basically live here
everynights been the same, fun night.
she's making fun of me
i hate her
no
i don't
shes's a nut.
peace.

qmnmd

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 14:40:19 GMT

Yesterday I went shopppppping and got lots of clothes :]. and then I had cheerleading. Christina came over after she was done working, and we planned out the weekend, our last weeekend before schoool. I still need to do all of that reading stuff, great. Anyways, life's been good, really goood :]

<3loveeeeeee.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 18:43:51 GMT

Yesterday was the first day of cheerleading, I'm excited for the season but not ready at the same time. Christina slept over, we stayed up till two just have really indepth conversations, it was nice. Then I couldn't sleep, stayed up till six then passed out, woke up at 11 and took a bath. I got this new exfoliater and I love it. I cleaned my room too, I need more hangers, I ran out. I have cheerleading at 4, and I think I just want to relax tonight, I'm tired.

I really don't want summer to end, and I have a few things bothering me, actually just one. I've been realizing how some people are just bad people, and I'm tired of it, but I don't really want to get into detail, because I hate when people do that and leave it for the world to see, I should really take it up with the person first. Goodbye.

We all have friends, but we stand alone.

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 15:08:42 GMT

I feel like I've been at my mom's house forever, and it's only been an extra day. I woke up this morning and my one eye is all red, I can't tell if it's pink eye or just an infection. Then I was freezing but my head felt warm, took my temperature and I have a 101º fever, I don't know if I should call out of work, I'll decide in a few hours. My immune system is probably crashing, coooooooool.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 09:49:07 GMT

It's 5:41 in the morning and I just woke up. Yesterday Christina left around 2, and I finished my book, which I loved, then my mom and I got into a huge screaming fight and it was the first time I've cried in over 6weeks.. it seems she's the only person to actually set me off. I took advil pm and fell asleep around 4, but she woke me up because, i was getting my hair done, i only got my roots covered and i was too sleepy to stay awake for the highlights, i couldn't even tell you what my hair looks like. I talked to sharif last night though, so that made me pretty happy, but honestly I don't remember the conversation. I'm still tired but I probably won't be able to pass out, but it's worth a shot i suppose.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 23:48:35 GMT

so i had work yesterday then me christina christina cara brittany and christina's friend steph went to the boardwalk which was funfufun, then me christina and cara slept at christina's, we stayed up till five ;] well except cara but she did leave us a lovely note.. "i have to wake up early and my cell is my alarm so if you move me bring it iwth my body" something like that.
today i went to go get glasses, i got these really cute juicy coture ones, they'll be here in a week :]

life's been good lately. i kinda feel like jamie and i are drifting a bit though, i don't know, maybe it's just me.

all of these pictures are desperately out of order.

i stole this from cara :]

lizzzzzzzzie, in a wierd outfit.

it was my turn

we're wierd :]

sharif :]

she took the picture when i wasnt ready.

whata night.

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 18:57:36 GMT

i was going to make a new journal, but i'm honestly too lazy. today i'm going to the outlets to see christina when she gets off of worky, then i don't know, we're going somehwere i think. life's getting better i must say.

yesterday the doctor told me i need glasses: i have 20/30 in one eye and 20/40 in the other. coooool.

and i miss sharif, i'm going to killl him i swear :]